In a disguise of busyness

Laughs. Jokes. Cries. Talks. Smiles. Happy. Sad. Depressed.

Today is a warm day. I am looking out of the windows. I was thinking. Looking at the blooming flowers, nice and beautiful. Smiling away. I have been thinking a lot these days. Looking at my windows. My days are not blooming as I want them to be. It is becoming more complicated these days. haha..Maybe I complicated it...

Tired. Came back from a trip from Europe. Jet lagged, woke up in the middle of the night, feeling hungry. After the trip, I think even harder. Stupid me. Still struggling whether my decision was right.

I have been away from my dear families, friends, cousins for the past 6 months. Maybe that was the reason why I am feeling this way. I am living in a different world now. Alone by myself. Disconnected from my entertainments. I am in a world of my ownself. All about work only here. Sounds so boring. Yes, it is boring for the past 6 months! Of course, I managed to think positive though. This is my decision and I have to live with it no matter what the consequences are.

I was thinking that I could hide myself behind all the busyness. Thought that by being busy and full concentration in my work will make me forget everything. Recently, I realised that I have been neglecting myself. I actually disconnecting myself with everything, obviously. I always care about work and what to do the next. Think I need a vacation seriously. I need a serious rescue here! haha...

By being busy, I can hide myself from others, what a genius, ME! hehe...Guess I can hide no more because everyone has been looking out for me. I was just too committed and have been carrying my responsibilities to wherever I go. Just think and worry too much!

Above all, I think I am just feeling lonely here and today is a bad hair day for me, I guess. ;)