is birthday trivial?

birthday. birth-day. the day you were born. is it a personal celebration? how important is it? to some people, it's important to remember someone's birthday. i used to think that too. but not anymore. i think it's a history. why would someone wants to remember your birthday? to impress you? maybe or maybe not. well, anyhow, i do remember some important friends' birthday. why? i don't know. because everybody else is doing it! hahaha... when people remember mine, i think i should do the same to them too!

8 years. 8 years ago. i always hope that someone who's close to me, would celebrate my birthday in such ways, or some surprises for me. but that was never happened till 4 years ago. my ex actually proposed to me. i was touched and actually accepted. that was the happiest moment in my life. i felt i was the luckiest person on earth. however, good times fly, bad times, crawl. something came up and we broke up. it was okay for me. however, that was a history to me today. and i'm over it.

today... this hour, this moment....i'm still awake in the early morning of my birthday. suddenly some thoughts just came into my mind. i've lived 29 years. what have i learned? of course, i've learned a lot and went through a lot in my life. good or bad... i've went through it all. bravo! i was thinking about myself, i'm so different compared to 9 years ago. i've really grown up, i supposed. maybe i should consider myself lucky to have met so many people. these people have taught me a lot of things in life. of course, all the things that i went through, trained me to become a stronger, more independant than ever, and more confident of myself. i'm smirking right now. at myself! ahah... i finally found some achievements, yeah...i'd consider that as my personal emotional achievements.

whoa...time really passed by so fast. without me even realising it! i'm 29 years old this year and i'm touching 30 next year....ermm...maybe not, only end of next year! hahaha... that's the beauty part of people who are born in the month of December! so, by declaring myself 30, what should i do? maybe i should seriously think about that, huh? hehehe....when i was 20, i always think what would i be when i'm 30? now, the time is here. who am i? someone. i'm just someone. another human sharing the earth with other humans. now, i'm thinking again. what would i be when i'm 40? that's a mystery for me to explore, think and be what i wanna be.